This obviously represents my childhood and how the constant desire for my mother to love me has effected my spirit...and how desperately I still want to be fully free from it. It is also a reminder that I am who I am because of everything I have experienced. Good or bad.
When I met Shawn it changed everything. I was really young, already had a child and was doing a lot of drugs and running around at the time. It really wasn't his scene and there was something deep down inside me that couldn't leave him alone. It seemed at the time that he was the enemy because he wanted me to stop doing some of the things I was doing and stop hanging out with some of the people I was hanging out with...but in reality - he was my super hero. Because his standards of me were high, my standards for myself became higher, too.
I was always a dreamer. Even when I was hurting or being hurt, I was also dreaming of better things for myself and my future. When I was a teenager I realized that I was in control and that I could have anything I wanted. I just had to dream it and do it. I'm finally taking that advice.
I added this card/envelope to stick pictures or whatever in.
This is the board in it's entirety.
Overall the experience was exactly what I needed it to be. It was affirming to me that I do know who I am and what I want...and that all of the potential I ever need is already within me. I had a few epiphanies while making it - one which I can't wait to share with all of you, but I can't until I'm sure that my idea's are legally protected. Apparently you can never be too safe.